You have tried to solve this before. You already know that.
You brought intelligence to it. Discipline. Language. You sat in rooms designed to help, and you did the work those rooms asked of you. And still, the pattern held.
Not because you failed. Because the thing driving the pattern was never what those rooms were built to reach.
You do not stay stuck because you lack awareness. You have more awareness than most people you know. You are stuck because something is organizing your decisions that you did not consciously install, a logic that made complete sense at some point in your life and has been running quietly ever since, shaping what you tolerate, what you avoid, what you believe you are allowed to want.
You have probably felt it most clearly in moments like these: